Sunday, July 19, 2009

(Reminiscing) My Salad Days.

(A word of notice: (assumed) cheesy blog entry.)

Today I was picked up by my parents in my cousin's house at Kelapa Gading because I was staying there for over a week. After that, we went straight to Bintaro (kayak ujung dunia satu ke ujung dunia lain) to my (other) cousin's farewell eatout at Hanamasa Bintaro Plaza cos he was about to depart to Germany to pursue his master degree. And then we went to my uncle's house which is a 5 minute walk from my house, in which my extended family wanted to have a karaoke session there.

Not being much of a karaoke whore (and not feeling like it), I decided to read manga in my cousin's room. Searching for some good stuff to read, I suddenly stumbled across a favorite series of mine: Salad Days by Shinobu Inokuma. It's a collection (if you would say) of classic love stories that center mostly on high school and college romance. I read through 6 of them before I decided I have no better business than to be at home sweet home. Since my mom, dad, and little brother is still having a good time there, I decided to walk back to my abode.

As I walked, I thought and contemplated on one thing and one thing only: love. From what I have re-read in Salad Days, defining love can be so simple and infinitely complex at the same time. It's a human necessity that can also lead to a human's nihilism. It can both fulfill a person and also destroy a person. You can give so little or so much and it still can be defined as love. And yes, although I may be too inexperienced for me to say such things, one things is for sure; my own high school salad days has already ended, moving into the next stage and counting (to God knows how many other stages left). And whatever is lying out there, is entirely up to me to explore it.

It finally came to me, after reaching my house gate, that love is something that I must continually redefine and remember every singe day of my life. And this point in my life, it's just the mere beginning.

"When I think of my high school days,
I think of you.

And when I do,
I remember everything; the talks, laughs, the dances, and the embraces.
Although you may or may not love me;
trust me, I do.

Because through you, I can know how to love, more than anything.
And therefore, I am ready to stand up and face life.
I hope you will, too.

When I see the sunshine,
I think about love.
When I do,
I knew that it started...

from you."

Saturday, July 4, 2009


Right now I feel that my 3rd other self inside me is hating my best(?) friend right now. I think it must be my Envy persona. Nevertheless, my Superego persona is still on the process to oust and neutralize it....

Anyways, I remembered to blog because first of all, for some nitwit reason I can't turn on my MSN or access Facebook (which I refresh every 20 minute or so). I was reminded by other things whne this happened, one of which was to start blogging again. Since I'm practically stuck in my room for a cumulative total of 14 hours today, I really don't have much to write (or, not much of quality stories/things to tell).

By the way, V6 is out in Mal Artha Gading! Whew, can't wait for my parents to get a revelation to go there, hehehehe.

Rachel a.k.a. Arisa Kusunoki has left Indo now...up next is Edward ML, a.k.a. Nagata Shinden, which I think will depart on the 10th of July...[I wonder why I keep referring them to the Japanese names I made up for them since grade 11...]

2 days ago I was cleaning out my room using a vacuum cleaner. In the process, I decided to clean my electronic compartments as well, so I grabbed myself a screw driver, to first clean out my desktop computer of those pesky cotton-like gray matter called dust. Sure enough, when I opened its outer "shell", there were a plethora of them, so off I go to work, starting with the outsides first, then the base of the compartment, then finally the motherboard, which was the more tedious than the others because of the minuscule dust particles that cling to the smallest of transistors and chips. Then I moved on to my laptop, which in my knowledge was pretty dusty as well. So I screwed open the lid, and went with my vacuum chores. When I was finished, I forgot to turn off the vacuum and a second or two later I accidentally aimed the nose to where the 4 screws was, and 2 of them got sucked right in. I was alarmed by the clanking sound and with reflex pulled it away and hurriedly turn the vacuum cleaner off. Slightly dumbfounded, I regained my momentum and try to fathom what has happened. After realizing my stupidity, I grudgingly screwed in the remaining bolts and stopped my cleaning there. It's kinda customary for me to stop what I do when I start to suck at it; especially at video games and the like.

I'd love to share to you guys the video I uploaded on Facebook, some sorta "boredom webcam show", but it's still unresponsive as we speak...hope it doesn't continue until tomorrow.

Ah yes, remember the Personal Project story I promised to share, but I only pasted in the prologue as of now? Now, I've uploaded the WHOLE THING to, a website that can enable you to upload and share documents, much like YouTube and uploading and sharing videos. I'm going to post the link to the prologue (again in case you forgot) and chapter 1, and then work my way to 2 chapters per blog post.

Oh, I forgot to mention that the class mates are based on people in my class of '09. I'll tell you who's who in a while...but not now. hehehe

"One Phrase Blues - Hideyuki Ono"

Thursday, June 25, 2009

A Few Things....

It's been awhile (again) since I've updated my I'm going dot-point mode:

- I'm still taking my ujian paket c (this ujian kesetaraan thingy so that I can have a national certificate of SMA completion aside from IB Diploma (Results in 11 days!!11!)) and tomorrow is MATEMATIKA....Pak Purba's wisdom be upon me.

- I've been thinking about the topic of love when fellow blogger fortywords mentioned the point that I'm contemplating myself if I should continue to love her,or if it can be dangerous if I do so in the long term...I may be lucky I'm in love with my best friend , but it ma not be for the better of both of us...

- PSX games yet to be played: Rival Schools series, skullmonkeys, Abe's odyssey and exodus (DANG I haven't finished BOTH of them yet!)

- I wanna try photography with lomo camera~ AND I want (read:need) a new lens....but what mm, I wonder?

-I have not organized my bookshelves OR my digital files...yes, blame me and my laziness

-Tanggal 1 Juli gua pendaftaran ulang buat UI, I wonder when is orientation time....

After 1st of July I'll be in frictional unemployment mode.....what should I do till then?

"Tooi Machikado" - ROUND TABLE

Sunday, June 7, 2009

A Dance Under the Starry Night Sky

Yesterday I only slept 30 minutes :P, but I wasn't that much sleepy, instead I was pretty much very active with my incessant hysterical laughter and fits of craziness....yet it was a night that I can never forget even though I might have Alzheimer's disease.

Yesterday, 4.00 PM.

I finally took a bath, making sure my hair did not touch the water after being vermaak'ed in the salon. My yellowish orange tie was ready, along with my medium gray suit and dark shirt and pants and shoes.

6.00 PM

Dammit, I was way too early. I thought by leaving at 5 I would avoid being late because of traffic, but I have proven myself once again that I'm a bit too punctual for parties at times. So I dropped my sleepover stuff at Ms Judy's room and walked slowly along the process just to waste time.

7.30 PM

Almost all of the class of '09 have arrived. Strangely, my song requests played early. oh well, it's fun hearing it anyway.

7.45 PM
The Thriller song came out a bit earlier than expected as well! After a very brief moment of panic, my group date gathered in the center and performed the dance anyway. While the others enjoyed watching us, especially because it was unexpected, I do think I was humiliating myself, me being in the front row and all.

9.15 PM

The Prom King and Queen were announced, Andrew T and Steph G! They were a surprisingly cute couple, due to their shyness and naiveness (I guess), very sweet nonetheless. They were even cuter when they danced.

Entah kapan PM

Beberapa orang ikut maju berdansa dengan Raja dan Ratu Prom. Radit dan Resham pun juga sudah mulai berdansa. Gua agak risuh dalam hati. Sekarang atau tidak sama sekali, gua pikir. Hati gua berdebar-debar. Akhirnya gua menghabiskan minuman air putih gua dan berdiri. Gua ulurkan tanganku, mengajaknya berdansa. Dia permisi dengan Alice dan Ed ML yang baru selesai berbincang kepadanya. Kami pun menuju lantai dansa dan mulai berdansa pelan-pelan dengan memegang bahu masing-masing. Dia mengomentari manisnya Dita dan pacarnya Narendra berdansa. Gua hanya tersenyum melihatnya. Gua melihat Radit dan Resham berdansa. Dalam sudut pandang gua sepertinya keduanya cukup menghayatinya (padahal sebenernya bukan begitu, Resham cuma takut bajunya keinjek). Gua nyoba gerakan memutar kepadanya. Gua salah posisinya dan cara megang tangan dia. Dia hampir mau jatuh tapi gua menahannya. Kami cuma tertawa. Seterusnya dia sekali-kali menengok disekitarnya melihat pasangan yang lain berdansa. Gua juga sama, tapi selain itu, gua hanya tersenyum melihatnya. Saat musik habis, dia mengajak beberapa teman lain, but dansa grup (yang kayak dansa dalam satu lingkaran gede itu loh), gua ambil kamera. Pada akhirnya, hanya ada satu perasaan yang gua rasakan saat berdansa dengannya.

Perasaan sayang.

1.00 AM

the sleepover (or wake over as some people call it) has begun and is ongoing. We toured some of lippo, practically humiliated ourselves on the way, and annoyed some strangers. We even went to the Cox's residence and took a pic of us "sleeping" in Mr. Brian's bed! I think my team was the first and only team to do that.

3.00 AM

After the bonfire, we did a prank on our juniors and would love to see the look on their faces on Monday. :P

4.30 AM

Some of us started to get wild and crazy due to exhaustion, hunger, and lack of sleep. I was both sleeping and awake during this time. Gua liat orang main Naruto di PS2 lah, main Wii lah, main kartu lah, ngobrol lah, iseng2an lah.

7.00 AM

In total I have only slept for 30 minutes. It was breakfast. there was bread, mie goreng, banana, cereal, and chocolate.

9.00 AM

I slept like a log.

This was the last time I can meet the class of '09 together. I hope we can do this some other time, aside from the upcoming Bali trip!

....dan aku masih akan sayang padamu :)

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

first days of torture + my personal project novel.

It's a Wednesday and I'm stressing out on studying math, so I decided to take a short break and tell you guys how I did on the first 3 exams:
english A2HL paper 1: PWND.
BI A1 SL paper 1: Interesting story, but a bit hard to analyze...SEPOTONG TANGAN UNTUK CINTA BEIBEH!
BI A1 SL paper 2: I got pwned. Padahal pertanyaannya gampang. Mungkin gara ga cukup niat hafalin novelnya sih...

BESOK MATH! mikirinnya aja gua udah berat nafas's now or November >.<

so to fill this post up I'm going to copypasta, upon request, my novel I did for PP...I have to say the overall story's crappy, but it's worth the nostalgia reading it... so here you go!

Titlenya "The Unspoken Truth"


Dreams are always a mystery that’s incomprehensible even today. It’s like entering to another kind of world, a magical realm, I suppose. Each day, each week, each month, they are always different to different kind of people. And it’s weird how some people study on how dreams work, and it’s also amazing how premonitions in dream really do come true. But some dreams hold important meanings. Some dreams hold messages. Some dreams….hold a destiny uninterrupted by fate, but by what we do.
It took place in a cloudy morning. It was a dream with sepia tones all over, even though I was just entering class.
As I gazed over at the faces of my classmates, they showed no signs of expression, bland, dull faces, facing the whiteboard. I had wanted to ask, but no words came out. I panicked for a while, looking at my classmates again. This time I realized that they had no faces, so I couldn’t tell which one was which, even though I have been renowned for identifying students across the school.
Then, it appeared.
Seven out of thirty classmates suddenly exerted an aura of bleak darkness, as if it was tainted. And then, that darkness devoured them in different ways. One was literally smashed into pieces like a mirror, one dissipated into energy orbs; one even had been slashed into pieces, blood spilling out of their body like a fountain. It was a nihilistic sight.
The ground shook. All that I can see had evaporated into an endless space of grey.
I was floating in this emptiness, and I was falling down. It was getting dark at the bottom, and suddenly a person materialized directly in front of me. His appearance scared me to near death. My body rapidly stops operating, as if I had come to the end.
My head bumped the wall.
I was fully awake. I was still in my room. I was still alive.
”Ugh, one of those dreams again…” I mumbled as I let the light from outside invade every corner of my room. It was fairly shiny with little clouds in the air. The clock positioned itself to show that it’s 6 in the morning.
And I’m still wondering.

hmmm...gua bingung how to post chapter 1 because it worth more than 4000 words (LOL)...well, I fI do I'm just gonna do it in the next post, so see ya...*back to math*

Friday, May 1, 2009

last days of school....and the road to exam hell

Monday and Tuesday weere one of the last days I could ever study like normal and wear my highschool uniform as a normal teenager... when exams are underway I'd be quite far from a normal student; I'd be an insomniatic (is that a word?), extreme school nerd who enslaves his mind on the subjects he's going to take exams on and nothing else, with a cold poker face once he enters the exam room.....*shiver*

anywas, Monday was quite a unique highlight as us seniors as a grade played a 'farewell' prank to the juniors....jadi kami ngumpul di koridor lantai 3 yang ada komputer labnya....terus kami semua bikin baris di sisi2 koridor...dan siapapun adik kelas yang lewatin baris kita bakalan di sambut kayak superstar (tepuk tangan, di foto, dikerumunin, disorakin, etc.)...karena kasian kita cuma kerjain adik kelas cowok, tapi ada juga satu-dua adik kelas cewek yang dikerjain... terus lama mereka jadi takut lewatin koridor tersebut....masih ada sih yang berani, tapi tetep aja pada akhirnya jadi kapok, LOL. klimaksnya waktu mr chris yang lewat, sorak +tepuktangan + kerumuninnya paling hebat, sampe mr chris (sumpah mati) sampe bikin muka XD yg jarang bgt kliatan...pokonya seru deh, sayang gua ga bisa dapet best angle soalnya gua agak telat dateng...hahahaha

Tuesday, which was practically our last day, was fun. not great fun, but good fun. our last prank (?) is that boys'll be wearing colorful ties and girls colorful ties +fancy socks....which sounds normal to me but a few, if not some adik kelas are making these faces at us...hohohohoho. anyways, we had special luncheon, in which the teachers prayed for us and we attempted to sing our graduation song, which is from the musical "Wicked!", but right now I forgot the title of the song so I'll tell you if I remember. terus ada the last round of interhouse badminton tournament, which in the end merapi collectively WON! ALRIIIIIGHT. With the ending of the tourament also rings the last school bell I'll ever hear for a long time.....

and then rabu sampe minggu libur. well, not libur sih, I'm studying studyin studying. and I haven't even finished revising math. OH TIDAK T__T

oh, and to fortyword's request the next blog posts will feature my novel I did for my personal projec, The Unspoken Truth! It might sound crappy at first (well maybe it actually is), but do havea read! until then, totaloo!

(The Epic of Zektbach ~Ristaccia~)

Monday, April 6, 2009

1 Week "Holiday"

"Maaf, Anda belum dapat diterima di Universitas Indonesia."

That ws my wakeup call. From now on I NEED to do what Pak EDW always tell us, "Study Hard!" And that's what I'll be doing for the next 2 months!

Karena SIMAK udah ga ada harapan, jadi gua harus cari alternatif lain, yang penting bisa kuliah dan ga menganggur setaun. harapan gua: UI Inter, Uni Padjajaran, ama Dharma Persada. Kalo bisa, gua ikut SNMPTN biar bisa masuk S1 reguler dan iseng2 nyoba Sastra JEpang di UGM. Gua ga peduli orang bilang itu susah ato apalah, sekarang gua yakin, kalo ada kemauan ada jalan. Dan tekad gua udah bulat; gua harus ngatur diri sendiri, for my own good.

....Gaming tetap jalan, kok, tenang aja...;) 

Saturday, March 21, 2009


...was the movie I watched today. But getting to the mall to watch it, precisely in PIM, was very annoying. gua perlu hampir dua jam cuma buat kesana, biasa ga nyampe setengah kurun waktu buat kesana. Apa gara-gara ada kampanye rally ato emang orang pada keluar semua abis ujan, gak ngerti gua.

(no way out - winnie)

And then as I'm watching the movie, I realize that his life, like many other people, have friendships that are meaningful; they luagh together, they spend good times together, they have conflicts with each other--

now that last part is what I'm come for all the years of my school life I can't remember one moment that me and any of my friends had an argument (for girls) or a fight with (for boys)? I mean, for example, all the time I spend with my friends, very very rarely I get into a fight with them. if there were any, that was when we were in high school. And since it's those conflicts that make friendship bonds stronger, then could I say that my friendships are just , bland?

But despite that, I think it is actually some aorta weird blessing that I don't have to experience any type of hardships and problems with my friends; I aready had enough from the problems in my family. still, I don't know the reason why this is so.

oh well, just some thought id like to share. besok mungkin gua pergi lagi entah ke mana...

(The Man From Nagpur - Quasimode)

Friday, March 20, 2009

Mock Exams and Persona 4 Don't Match I am actually continuing what I wrote after almost 5 months... Blogger yang sangat ga produktif yak....

OK so anyways, today was the final day of my mock exams ( not over yet for most of my mateys, they're having bio next monday and I don't HAHAHA ;P). To sum the whole thing up in 15 words or less, it is as follows:
English paper 1: didn't know what I realy wrote.
paper 2: My pen was on fire. booyah.
Indonesian paper 1: sudah biasa...cakewalk
paper 2: I was on a 'trance'; didn't know what crap I wrote
Business paper 1: moderate; not too shabby, not to shiny either.
paper 2: WOW.  didn't expect it to be THAT hard. But I think I did good....hopefully.
ITGS paper 1: WTF artificial intelligence
paper 2: for the first time in doing these ones, gua ngebacotnya dikit banget....
paper 3: If I don't get a 7 (IB scale), I'm gonna cry.
Physics ( which I saw the results already, right before math exams):
paper 1: 50%
paper 2: 50%
paper 3: not even close to 50%
Conclusion? FAIL.
paper 2: easier compared to paper 1, but I only answered 80% of the questions.

and now I'm FREE! 3 straight days of freedom, while my bio peeps study their butts off xP.

Besok rencananya gua mau nonton KambingJantan, penasaran juga gua hasil akhir tu pilem. Abis itu mau ngelanjutin Persona 4, yang barusan sebelum ngetik ini entry udah selesai ngalahin shadow Naoto... personanya kecil2 cabe rawit euy! and I've been playing it throughout the whole course of the exam weeks as well. Yes, soon-to-be IB-victims, mocks is purposely set to commence after you have everything else done; projects, assignments, lab reports, portfolios, whatevers. and the psychoogy behind it is that you get demotivated to study for mocks, and then in the end you get bad results, regret it, and compensate your hours of slacking off during mocks dedicated to rigorous, focused, almost trance-like studying. It's good sih, but it's sorta depressing for a start, so yea...X|

( my neck hurts...)